Calm Pill 42

I’m pleased to announce the launch of Calm Pills Ambient Radio (calmradio.uppmixes.com): a free 24/7 online radio station playing your favorite Calm Pill mixes which you can tune into anytime and just hit play!

Calm Pill library of mixes has grown over the years and many new listeners will not get to hear most of them due to how podcast episodes are presented (last to first), so it made sense to launch this station to help you discover your next favorite Calm Pill mix.

Hope you enjoy the station. I’m working on making it available through smart speakers. In the meantime, if you have any feedback on improving station’s experience, email me a line at uppmixes.com/contact. You can also sign up for new releases mailing list (uppmixes.com/mailinglist) to get an update when smart speakers support is available.

Also, did you know that I have another podcast called Chill Pills. It features the same quality of craftmanship and careful curation you’ve come to expect from this show but focuses on more genres of music spanning chillout, lounge, jazz, instrumental, lo-fi chill hop, etc. Check it out:
https://link.chtbl.com/ChillPills

Tracklist

00:00
Danny Elfman ― Finale (From “The Kingdom”)

06:45
Jon Hopkins ― Opalescent

08:22
Jeff Pearce ― The Hidden Sky

11:46
Cliff Martinez ― He Had A Good Time

13:00
Global Communication ― 12:18

17:56
Tetsu Inoue ― Low Of Vibration

23:08
James Johnson ― Minimum #5

33:39
David Helping ― All Things End

37:24
Alio Die ― The Circular Development Of Time

45:09
Steve Roach ― Saguaro

47:09
Aeoliah ― Whispers Among The Stars

Chill Pill 40

“The greatest tribute to the dead is not grief, but gratitude,” Thornton Wilder once wrote.

Two months in, my grief for losing my best friend Chris is still ever-present. Nevertheless, realizing that painful separation was always going to be an inevitable price for attachment, I started attempting to derail the train of sorrow onto the path of gratitude.

Chris’s arrival and presence in my life sparked countless joyful moments. He got me through difficult times, not by doing anything extraordinary, but by just being there. He was an inspiration too. You’re here listening to this show because Chris was there at the beginning with me in 2016, brainstorming how I might go about creating and branding it.

For all of these things and everything else, I made this mix to say: thank you for all of it Chris! For the ups and downs, for the highs and lows, for the sights and sounds, for the inspiration to be all I can be, for believing in me and pushing me to realize my potential.

And… I even tucked in here your favorite song: “When She Loved Me”. They played it at your funeral’s closing ceremony. I will always remember how the last piano note of this song and subsequent silence made me feel then: like it was curtains closing on our lives together. But now I realize it was the beginning of my journey to find you again, through sheer gratitude for our time together.

For something calmer and quieter, check out my other podcast: Calm Pills, which are soothing atmospheric ambient albums, seamlessly mixed to help with relaxation, meditation, reading or deep sleep. Mostly consisting of instrumental ambient sounds and soft piano music, these mixes will help you completely relax your mind and body.
https://link.chtbl.com/CalmPills

Tracklist

00:00
Above & Beyond ― Making Plans (feat. Alex Vargas)

04:43
Coldplay ― O

08:28
George Kallis ― The River of Life (Instrumental)

11:04
No Spirit ― Washed Ashore (feat. Mondo Loops)

13:01
Bliss ― Thank You

17:18
Blake Ewing ― Peaks

19:93
Dido ― Sitting on the Roof of the World

22:37
Day 7 ― The End

26:45
Chris Snelling ― Together We Will Live Forever (Edit)

28:08
Aaron Zigman ― The Last Goodbye (Edit)

29:45
Sarah McLachlan ― When She Loved Me

32:30
Craig Armstrong ― Ivan Remembers

32:55
Craig Armstrong ― Through the Mall (Edit)

33:56
ATB ― Within a Dream

38:32
Jonathan Ogden ― 07:00 the Morning Comes

40:48
Ulrich Schnauss ― As If You’ve Never Been Away

46:40
Craig Armstrong ― Life Returns to Normal

47:30
Lucinda Drayton ― Thank You For All Of It

51:59
Tom Day ― Goodbye Friends

54:53
the album leaf ― Tied Knots

Calm Pill 41

I dedicated my last Chill Pill mix to my best friend who left this world all too quickly last month from his short-lived flight with COVID. Since then, and following the funeral that I couldn’t attend in person, I fell into a deep existential breaking point as I realized the fragility of life, and grabbled with the conviction that this can’t be all that we are, all that we live for, and all that remains of us. I imagined that even if Chris was ready to go, that he’d want me to remember him, to tell the world that he walked this earth with kindness, humility and desire to make it a better place.

To me, what’s harder than the helplessness I feel against the raging monster of never-again, is the thought that with every passing day, his memory is slipping away, one tiny fragment at a time. I don’t know how long this mix will live on, but while it does, I hope it tells the story of a man who once existed, who was a best friend to me through thick and thin. I may or may never have a friend like him again, but for the rest of my days I’m going to remember and cherish all the moments I was blessed to have shared with him.

Also, did you know that I have another podcast called Chill Pills. It features the same quality of craftmanship and careful curation you’ve come to expect from this show but focuses on more genres of music spanning chillout, lounge, jazz, instrumental, lo-fi chill hop, etc. Check it out:
https://link.chtbl.com/ChillPills

Tracklist

00:00
amble ― May Kasahara

03:21
David Helpling ― The Real World

04:34
Spheriá ― Don’t Forget Me

07:56
amble ― Circumambulation

14:12
Thom Brennan ― Stories From The Forest Part 1

17:36
Warmth ― Every Day From Now

25:08
Cousin Silas ― October Grasslands

29:48
Biosphere ― Kyle

30:06
amble ― Narcissus and Goldmund

33:32
Andrew Tasselmyer ― Dawn Light

35:13
Kip Mazuy ― Where We Dissappear As One

41:52
Michael Stearns ― Sabana

45:47
Andrew Tasselmyer ― Number 6

48:02
Harold Budd & Robin Guthrie ― The Belles Of Saint Andrew

51:07
Slow Dancing Society ― Nerves

58:54
José Venditti ― The Phantom of the Night

60:44
Ben Lukas Boysen ― Sorry

Chill Pill 39

On the eve of the 1st anniversary of when COVID-19 was declared a pandemic, I mourn the loss of my best friend who lost his short-lived fight to it last month. I made this mix in an attempt to process my shock, my disbelief that years of talking to him every single day have been undone, and came to an indisputable irreversible end, in a matter of a week. He was my rock through thick and thin and I never imagined losing him this soon, at the young age of 36.

But I also made this for all of you out there who lost a dearly beloved, be it to any cause, foreseen or sudden. Much has been written about grief, but contending with it and living in a post-traumatic shock is something no one can prepare you for. Words escape me and I find myself in whirlwind of emotions that come in unpredictable waves. Emotions like anger, denial, sorrow, disbelief and regret. I go about my day feeling numb, aimless and dejected. I’m told time is a healer, but what if I don’t want to be healed? I’m scared of our memories fading into oblivion.

Maybe this mix will be a solace for all of us who grieve. It has the highs and lows, the ebbs and flows, the wave of emotions that come to define our experience living with such insurmountable loss.

And to Chris I whisper:

Goodbye, my friend; your journey has ended.
Your struggles have now begun to cease.
Time to close your eyes to happy dreams
And wake to eternal peace.

Goodbye, my friend; I don’t want to let go.
We’ve been together many years.
It’s hard to see what lies ahead.
It’s blurry through the tears.

Our two souls are forever entwined.
There will always be a hollow spot.
I will miss you until it becomes my time.

For something calmer and quieter, check out my other podcast: Calm Pills, which are soothing atmospheric ambient albums, seamlessly mixed to help with relaxation, meditation, reading or deep sleep. Mostly consisting of instrumental ambient sounds and soft piano music, these mixes will help you completely relax your mind and body.
https://link.chtbl.com/CalmPills

Tracklist

00:00
No Spirit ― Memories We Made

03:54
Hollow Coves ― These Memories

08:25
An Imaginal Space ― Belated

08:40
Lights & Motion ― Northern Lights

10:31
Jon Hopkins ― Feel First Life

14:46
Spheriá ― Reminiscent Of Spring

15:23
The Captive Oceans ― There Is A World Better Off Without Me

19:39
Not a Number ― Awaiting Stasis (Excerpt)

20:17
Embrace ― I Had A Time

25:33
Ayan Das ― Remembrance (feat. Zan)

27:48
Michael FK ― Farewell

32:57
U137 ― Adam Forever (Album Version)

36:30
Amir Hedayah ― Mindspace

37:22
Amir Hedayah ― Betrayed

38:24
Susan Boyle ― Somewhere Over The Rainbow

43:50
Laibach ― End Title (We Leave in Peace)

46:11
Lovey James feat. Daniel Seavey ― See You Again (Cover Version)

50:00
No Spirit ― Trees In The Wind

53:00
Max Richter ― When She Came Back

55:16
Jon Hopkins ― Small Memory

56:30
the album leaf ― Another Day

60:16
J. Ralph Feat. Scarlett Johansson & Joshua Bell ― Before My Time

Calm Pill 40

I’m happy to present the very first guest mix on this show, by none other than my friend and previous collaborator Tonepoet. His ambient mixes on his Spaceman’s Transmissions podcast are exquisitely crafted pieces of art, and he is gracing this show with a beautiful painting that he describes below. He also creates beautiful guitar-infused ambient music which I have featured heavily in the past. Check out his music and mixes below and enjoy the show.

mixcloud.com/Tonepoet
tonepoet.bandcamp.com

“Look up at the night sky, dear listeners, and tell me what you see. A vast and empty curtain that swallows up light? A void riddled with tiny diamonds? A dark and lifeless pasture? Now, look past that, and begin to transcend above these former descriptions of the cosmic drape. It is the cosmic ocean, and it’s much more vast that we can conceive. This galactic wall is graced with glistening stars like well-worn shells that are eroding to reveal a delicate sheen, planet illuminated that produce reflective shimmers not unlike ocean waves, and a stunning moon that drifts like a sand dollar in the sky. This is the true cosmic skyscape for all of us: the limitless sea of unimagined intensity and grace. See it for what it really is, and immerse yourself within its cleansing cosmic tide.

As we drift within the cosmic tide, allow the ceremony of cleansing your senses and mind with the sweet nectar of this aural current of sound and light that carries you into the ether. Allow this current to guide you to that destination that yields an oasis of wonderment, purity, and self-purpose. It is here on this island within the star speckled ocean in which you are rewarded with an awareness of your potential and creative drive. Spark your ambitions with this flame of enlightenment.

The staff here at Spaceman’s Transmissions takes deep pride in producing only the highest quality products for our clients. When you old boy Tonepoet steps out to get fresh air, do not think that he has abandoned you as an aimless, drifting co-pilot without a mission or destination. This detour is only an effort to reassess the correct pathway to our destination and forge new means for attaining the zenith of our journey. You, the co-pilot, are vital to all of our voyages. So it is said.

An absolute acknowledgement and ridiculously extreme ‘thank you’ goes out to Calm Pills for not only serving up like-minded initiatives, but for hosting this mix and being an amazing resource and friend. Cheers, Aladdin!

Peace.

Turn on, tune in, drift in the ether…”

Tracklist

00:00
Nobody ― Sounds Of The Sea

00:30
Abstract Aprils ― We’re All Clouds

03:13
Parks ― When The Last Ferry Left Helsingborg

09:26
Benoît Pioulard ― &c. (Excerpt)

12:14
Caustic Reverie ― Induction Sermon

15:10
Max Ananyev ― Golden Haze

20:26
Steve Gibbs ― Adrift

25:45
Somniscape ― Catamaran

28:28
626 ― Echaskech (Kevin Bryce Remix) (Excerpt)

29:55
Ben Woods ― Thought

32:55
Virus ― Seconda Parte (Excerpt)

33:24
Panoptique Electrical ― Night Dance (Excerpt)

37:03
halftribe ― Balm

39:41
Latent Places ― Altitude (Excerpt)

41:28
Matt Starling ― Music For Nina (6 Minute Edit)

46:16
Olan Mill ― Pine

48:31
Yair Elazar Glotman & Mats Erlandsson ― Procession (Excerpt)

51:09
Jónsi & Alex Somers ― Hundslappadrífa

55:21
Morimoto Naoki ― Off

Calm Pill 39

In this album, I would like to invite you to sample the world of awakened souls (awakenedsouls.bandcamp.com), an ambient music project of veteran electronic music producer James Bernard and his wife Cynthia. When I stumbled on their album how we heal, I knew I had found an artist who creates music for the same reason I create these mixes: to heal. Their mission is to “help others find the sense of healing that music brings to them” and their name comes from their “hope to be in touch with the most authentic parts of ourselves.” I think you will find that their music indeed lives up to this ambition and is conducive to quite reflection.

As always, if you like what you hear, check out the time-stamped track list and support awakened souls and all the other great artists featured on this mix by buying and streaming their music.

Also, did you know that I have another podcast called Chill Pills. It features the same quality of craftmanship and careful curation you’ve come to expect from this show but focuses on more up-tempo genres of music spanning chillout, lounge, jazz, instrumental, lo-fi chill hop, etc. Check it out:
https://link.chtbl.com/ChillPills

Tracklist

00:00
Gallery Six ― Under the Morning Mist

02:34
Rudy Adrian ― Shelter From The Storm

06:58
Andrew Tasselmyer ― Mai Khao Sunset

10:13
Warmth ― Reflector

17:06
Dreamware ― Periphery

21:02
Stijn Hüwels ― A kind of a path

23:36
awakened souls ― A New Era

28:24
Tonepoet ― A Lonely Dwarf Revolves In Peace

32:09
awakened souls ― bodhichitta

36:29
An Imaginal Space ― Circles

39:17
awakened souls ― nightly meditation

44:44
Murcof ― Chapitre VI

47:24
awakened souls ― citrus sunset

Chill Pill 38

This mix is dedicated to all people who dream of a better world, one without the conflicts and fractions that plagued our world today.

Sometimes I like to zone out and run my imagination wild and free. I like to think that one day, somehow humans will find a way to coexist. To be able to give and take. To share this planet Earth equally and fairly among all of us, and to nourish it so that our future generations will be able to do the same.

So when you’re listening to this mix, just set back, relax and imagine. Imagine you’re in a wide open green field, setting next to a tree in the early hours of the day. It’s the break of dawn and the sky above you is slowly but surely starting to light up from darkness. The clouds are clearing up and the early rays of sunshine are passing through, touching upon the grass and creating moving waves of lights. And while you’re enjoying the breeze in this peaceful atmosphere, reflect on what it feels like to live in a city of hope, a city were people loved and where kind to each other. They don’t speak the same language, have the same color or share the same religion, but they’ve found a way to embrace and accept one another, for better and worse.

I released this mix 9 years ago under my previous pseudonym DJ Seroton in a series called Unwind. It was one of my most popular Unwind mixes. Sensational, soulful and dreamy with influence from classical music, it was inspired by the fourth track of the same name by Gregorian.

For something calmer and quieter, check out my other podcast: Calm Pills, which are soothing atmospheric ambient albums, seamlessly mixed to help with relaxation, meditation, reading or deep sleep. Mostly consisting of instrumental ambient sounds and soft piano music, these mixes will help you completely relax your mind and body.
https://link.chtbl.com/CalmPills

Tracklist

00:00
Amethystium ― Break of Dawn

04:32
Ryan Farish ― Look To You

06:21
ATB ― City Of Hope

08:34
Gregorian ― Imagine

12:51
Vangelis ― Memories of Blue

17:49
Chris Botti ― Hallelujah

20:24
Yiruma ― Our Same Word

22:34
Enya ― Hope Has A Place

27:15
Terry Davies ― Epilogue (Beethoven Piano Concerto no 5 “Emperor”-II)

30:15
Roger Matura ― Time Is A River (Prologue)

32:36
Jon Hopkins ― Apparition

34:25
ATB ― Moving Backwards

38:13
Brian Eno ― Just Another Day

42:15
Hammock ― Losing You to You

48:01
Helios ― Hope Valley Hill

53:00
ATB ― Trilogy (The Final Chapter)

Calm Pill 38

Happy new year everyone. Let’s make the best of 2021. I’m energized and looking forward to crafting for you more mixes showcasing the best of what ambient genre has to offer.

Let’s start this year with another trip back in time to a mix I released 5 years ago as part of my Drifter ambient series, which I created under my previous pseudonym DJ Seroton. At the time, I dedicated it to the wonderful people behind Ambient-Nights (mixcloud.com/Ambient_Nights), who I had the pleasure of joining as part of the Ambient-Nights Mixer Family. Ambient-Nights was the site that got me hooked on ambient music since I discovered it in 2007. The quality of their mixes is really extraordinary, and they have a body of work that will sure take some time to go through, but the experience will be just as rewarding.

Fun fact: I decided to call this mix after the second track, Weightless by Marconi Union. Few years after this mix was released, scientists singled out this song as “the world’s most relaxing song.” The song is filled with dreamy, mellow synths, soothing melodies and instrumentation composed of piano, guitar and electronic samples of natural soundscapes. Read this for more information:
https://www.independent.co.uk/arts-entertainment/music/news/relaxing-song-best-weightless-marconi-union-youtube-surgery-anxiety-a9011971.html

Also, did you know that I have another podcast called Chill Pills. It features the same quality of craftmanship and careful curation you’ve come to expect from this show but focuses on more up-tempo genres of music spanning chillout, lounge, jazz, instrumental, lo-fi chill hop, etc. Check it out:
https://link.chtbl.com/ChillPills

Tracklist

00:00
Another Green World ― Stream of Consciousness

06:16
Marconi Union ― Weightless

13:46
Andrew Lahiff ― Deserted

18:14
J Butler ― Grey

21:39
An Imaginal Space ― Cloudscape Timelapse 10.06.15 (Loop 16.05.15)

23:49
Jonson ― From the Outside Part Two

30:21
Cliff Martinez ― My Name On A Car

32:10
Bing Satellites ― 19 February 2012 part 2

35:04
Michael Stearns ― Procession (Sacred Ceremony) (Edit)

36:42
All India Radio ― Little Desert Ambient

38:43
Ben Woods ― Together Standing

42:10
Pete Namlook & Dr. Atmo ― Trip From Mars (Excerpt)

43:01
Eluvium ― Show Us Our Homes

47:26
Alio Die ― Spring Music

56:02
Secede ― Shrine

Chill Pill 37

Happy new year everyone!

This mix is inspired by a beautiful song called Love & Hate by Michael Kiwanuka, and the mix is dedicated to my brother Ahmad who recommended it when I asked him for his favorite song to make a mix around. I loved the empowering message of the song that I decided to make an uplifting mix themed around it.

Let’s make 2021 count!

“Always on the outside, through a window looking in
Never the right time, so the chance goes by again

The lines begin to show, when we feel broken
To move on we have to drop the pieces we’re holding

And no one is perfect
You don’t need to be strong, every single day

Chase the wind again, knowing just what they’ll say
Don’t care anymore, can’t stay still anyway

No one really knows along the way
that the best things in life won’t be, perfect anyway”

From track #7 Seraphine, the Starry-Eyed Songstress

For something calmer and quieter, check out my other podcast: Calm Pills, which are soothing atmospheric ambient albums, seamlessly mixed to help with relaxation, meditation, reading or deep sleep. Mostly consisting of instrumental ambient sounds and soft piano music, these mixes will help you completely relax your mind and body.
https://link.chtbl.com/CalmPills

Tracklist

00:00
Marga Sol ― Bliss Of Water (Original Mix)

05:49
Shaheen Sheik ― Wildflower World (Wild Orchid Mix)

09:36
Koru ― The Meeting

13:03
Michael Kiwanuka ― Love & Hate

19:09
Markus Gleissner ― I Will Rise up Now (Instrumental)

21:29
Alexandre Navarro ― Universes

21:47
League of Legends featuring Jasmine Clarke ― Seraphine, the Starry-Eyed Songstress

25:59
Blank & Jones ― Flowing

29:31
Flitz&Suppe, Gas-Lab ― Slice of Life

31:06
The Universe’s Howl ― Sehnsucht

35:18
Yağız Oral ― Light Me Up (Instrumental)

37:50
Christiaan Verbeek ― Things From Her

39:06
Conjure One ― Center Of The Sun (Solarstone’s Chilled Out Remix)

48:31
Paulsen & Stryczek ― Tripping Down A Desert Road

51:11
Guggenz ― This Love I’ve Met

55:02
Alejandro De Pinedo ― Wonderland

Chill Pill 36

I released this mix 9 years ago under my previous pseudonym DJ Seroton in a series called Unwind.  It was inspired by the first track, In My Secret Life, by the late Leonard Cohen.

It was a personal mix to some extent. The following words by Gregory L. and Brenda Person sum up how I was feeling at the time. Perhaps you can relate to it. Either way, I hope you enjoy it. It certainly brings back memories for me.

“There are so many secrets about life I will never know. I may never know what road I should have taken, the one less travelled or the one I know.
There are the could haves, the maybes, should haves, never haves and must haves but will I ever know? Will I ever know for sure what life is really like? Will it be chock-full of promises or filled with disappointing doubts?
Who am I? Where am I going? Will I travel down the road of life not making a single stop? Will I recognize that awkward moment when my future is in sight?
I think before I bare my soul, I hold some back. Have I ever given my whole?
I may not be the person you see. There is no way of knowing all the possibilities that life could be.
Some of life’s secrets are meant to be kept forever more.”

My Secret Life by Gregory L. and Brenda Person

Tracklist

00:00
Leonard Cohen ― In My Secret Life

04:41
John O’Callaghan vs. Neptune Project ― Rhea (Chillout Mix)

06:16
Bliss ― Remember My Name

11:37
Vitam Venturi feat. Ben Hatten ― Walking On Clouds Part 1

16:41
Enigma ― From East To Innocence (DJ Seroton’s Mashup)

21:16
Kira B.M.J. ― Stars Above The Beach

23:58
Blank & Jones ― Balearic Blue

30:07
Ulrich Schnauss ― As If You’ve Never Been Away

36:22
Corderoy ― Born Again

41:03
Vargo ― Relax (Blank & Jones, Vargo Vocal Remix)

46:51
Chris Coco ― My Beach House

53:47
Jon Hopkins ― Afterlife

56:33
Enigma ― Goodbye Milky Way